When I was almost 38 weeks pregnant with Benjamin I got a feeling that he was coming very soon. I was so confident that I would give birth, I actually called my parents and told them to come to Maryland. This being my first pregnancy it was a risky move, but everything changed in how I was feeling. I woke up on a Sunday morning and did not want to get out of bed; I had been tired before that day, but never so tired that facing the day did not sound appealing. I fought this feeling for 3 days and on the morning of the 4th day my water broke and Benjamin was born hours later. On Saturday this same feeling came over me. This time I'm not so confident that giving birth is imminent. I have had doubts as to whether I actually knew that Benjamin would be born or if all the excitement surrounding my announcement induced my labor. I flattered myself yesterday by saying that I am just a little more self-aware and that is how I could tell something had changed in my body. Bram brought me back to reality by responding that I just assign meaning to every little thing, and that can be both a good and bad thing (he knows me very well.) I am very hesitant to say that I am going to have this baby anytime soon. Let's face it - I'm still a little under 2 weeks away from my due date. The average pregnancy goes well into the 41st week. There is more evidence that this pregnancy will go on for 3 more weeks than that it is about to end. But still, I have "the feeling." I'm hoping that it's not wishful thinking. Please pray for me that I would have patience and confidence in God's plan for my life and my baby's life. I know that His timing is best - and nothing can thwart His plan - not even "the feeling."
June 30, 2008
"The feeling"
When I was almost 38 weeks pregnant with Benjamin I got a feeling that he was coming very soon. I was so confident that I would give birth, I actually called my parents and told them to come to Maryland. This being my first pregnancy it was a risky move, but everything changed in how I was feeling. I woke up on a Sunday morning and did not want to get out of bed; I had been tired before that day, but never so tired that facing the day did not sound appealing. I fought this feeling for 3 days and on the morning of the 4th day my water broke and Benjamin was born hours later. On Saturday this same feeling came over me. This time I'm not so confident that giving birth is imminent. I have had doubts as to whether I actually knew that Benjamin would be born or if all the excitement surrounding my announcement induced my labor. I flattered myself yesterday by saying that I am just a little more self-aware and that is how I could tell something had changed in my body. Bram brought me back to reality by responding that I just assign meaning to every little thing, and that can be both a good and bad thing (he knows me very well.) I am very hesitant to say that I am going to have this baby anytime soon. Let's face it - I'm still a little under 2 weeks away from my due date. The average pregnancy goes well into the 41st week. There is more evidence that this pregnancy will go on for 3 more weeks than that it is about to end. But still, I have "the feeling." I'm hoping that it's not wishful thinking. Please pray for me that I would have patience and confidence in God's plan for my life and my baby's life. I know that His timing is best - and nothing can thwart His plan - not even "the feeling."
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Hi, my friend... this quote helped me during the waiting time before Savanna was born. I hope it helps you in the same way.
God’s Timing. Jonah 4:6
Just when we need a mercy, and when the mercy is much more a mercy because it is so timely, that is when it comes. If it had come later, it might have been too late, or at any rate it would not have been so seasonable and thus not so sweet.
Who knows what is the right time? God, who sees all at a single glance, knows. He knows when to give and He knows when to take. In every godly life there is a set time for each event. There is not need to ask, “why is the white here and the black there? Why this gleam of sunlight and that roar of tempest? Why t here a marriage and there a funeral? Why sometimes a harp and at other times a trumpet?” god knows. An it is a great blessing when we can leave it all in His hands.
Let the plant come up in the night and it will be a good night. Let the plant wither in the morning and it will be a good morning (Jon 4:6-7). All is well if it is in God’s hands. Let us distinctly recognize God in all our comforts: when they come when we are unworthy, when they come in a form in which we most require them, and when they come when we are most in need.
From Beside Still Waters, pg 174.
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